my crap….izzit?

went to The Body Shop luking for tea tree oil.mine,dah abis. n now there just tooooooooo much histamin on my face and i keep on garu and garu sum more. The Body Shop Moscow DONT HAVE TEA TREE OIL DAMMIT!argh i really really cant believe it.serious. dah la kat russia nie, x byk product tea tree. n i just cant use other brand coz there just tooooooooooo much chemical i means x natural substance inside. im not gonna let all those human-made-lab chemical product on my face. noway.so…adoi muka dah gatal. abis la….

owh pastu satu lagi,its ‘novie god’ or (new year in russian ) season now.russian clebrate their new year n xmas 2gther, so they didnt celeb xmas on 25 dec ya. sambong balek citer. its the holiday season. xmas tree everywhere. santa n his assist. everybody are buying hadiah for famliy n friends. u enter metro n u will nampak pak cik n mak cik carrying hadiah for their cucu and stuff.

well thats not the story actually. the thing is,just now i viewed one of my friends page. nampak la gambar kat msia now.(gosh i miss home). the pic was taken in mid valley. well i guess mid is enuff tu picture how msia now. all hypermarkets and malls mesti dah penuh with xmas tree n bla bla. its funny actualy. im in russia and its normal for me to see n experience all these thing. but when look at that picture, seems like msia lagi meriah lak hiasan xmas nyer.

a suppose an islamic country…they said… i dont think so… y msian nak jadik cam europe? we dont celeb xmas. alasan-we are multi racial dont we? ala madinah dulu multi racial gak kan. i means msia sum how sumwhat dah terikut ikut sangat with the western. as if what ever the westerner did are right and good. why do we have to be that way?  u dont have to decorate ur mall with all huge seriously big gigantic xmas tree. fine, u want to decorate it but…tah la… the so called islamic goverment didnt do anything.and im not a prime minister to change stuff. i only able to express myself in this sad blog where no one will read and will never be heard.

after looking at that picture i dont felt secured. im in non muslim country. its hard enough to practice islam here. wearing hijab is an alien thing. theres no place to solat, when we perform our solat people look at us,wried people they might think. but back there in msia we free to practice islam. i take that for granted b4 this… but now im appriciate it. but at this moment i dont know… if msia is becoming more western, the people too in fact,im afraid the same thing will happen in msia. when we were having our usrah my friend read this hadith it sound sumthing like this

‘permulaan kedatangan islam,ia di anggap asing, dan akan datang satu masa di mana ia akan menjadi asing kembali’

i guess dah tak lama dah kan…

when we were having our usrah,wan read this thing…(she took it from some webpage)well,i just felt that i should share it wit everyone olso..

Everyday as I wake up at dawn
My mind starts working the moment I yawn
There were many things to do, o dear!
That’s why I hastily did my Subuh prayer
I didn’t have the time to sit longer to praise the lord
To me rushing out after prayer is nothing odd.

Since school I had been busy every minute
Completing my tutorials and handing it in
My studies took up most of my time always
Minimum time did I have to Allah to pray
Too many things to do, and zikir is rare,
For Allah, I really had no time to spare.

When I grew up and started my degree
Studying all day to secure my future
When I reached home, I prefer to have fun,
I chatted on the phone, on the yahoo messenger,
But I didn’t read much the book of heart, the Quran,
I spent too much time surfing the internet,
Sad to say my  faith was falling flat.

The only time I have left is weekends
During which I prefer window shopping with friends
Or better yet I prefer to sit back and enjoy my cds and dvds
I couldn’t spare time to go to usrahs and daurahs
I’m too BUSY that’s my BIG EXCUSE…

I did my five prayers, but did so quickly,
After prayer, I didn’t sit longer to reflect quietly
I didn’t have time to help the needy ones
I was loaded with works as my precious time runs.

My life was already full of stress,
So I didn’t counsel as Muslim in distress,
I didn’t spent much time with muslims that can advice me,
Because I thought, doing so wont help me much,
It will be just a waste of time.

No time to share, with none Muslim about Islam;
Or even to my other fellow muslims who have rights on me,
Even though I know, inviting causes no harm
No time to do sunnah prayers at all
All this contribute to my iman fall…

I’m busy here, I’m busy there,
I have no time at all, that’s all I care
I went for religious lesson, just once in a while
Well, at least I do some, my nafs whispers,
Coz I’m too busy making a pile.

I worked all day, I slept all night
Too tired for tahajjud, and it seems no right
To me, studying as a living was already tough
So, I only did basic deeds but that’s not enough.

No time at all, to admire God’s creation
No time to praise Allah, and seek His Compassion
Although I know how short is my life,
For Islam, I really didn’t strive.

Finally the day comes, when the Lord calls for me
And I stood before Him with life history
I feel so guilty because I should have prayed more
I should have invited other muslims to Allah cause
I should strive more to learn about my deen,
Isn’t that what a Muslim live for
To thank Allah and do more good deeds
And the Quran is for us to read.

Now, at JUDGMENT DAY, I’m starting to fret,
I wasted my life but it’s too late to regret,
My entry to paradise depend on my good behavior,
But I have not done enough, nor did proper prayer
My “good deed book” is given from my right
An angle opens my “book” and read out my plight.

Then the angle chided me
“O You Muslim servant, you are the one
Who is given enough time, yet not much is done
Do you know your faith is loose?
Saying “no time” is only an excuse.
Your “good deed book” should be filled up more
With all the good work you stood up for…

Hence I only recorded those little good deeds
As I say this, I know your eyes will mist
I was about to write even more, you see…
But I did not have the TIME to list”…

~ i wish i have done more~

well last night,

we,well the 7 of us of course, as usual kumpul la nak makan,dinner.

bcoz tomorrow is cuti,so we decide to watch sumthing.time tengah makan la.it becoming habit for us actually to watch movie or series or what so ever while eating…

nak tengok shin chan,tapi cannot coz ader orang guna,

nak tengok 1 liter or tears,citer tu so sedih lak,

nak tengok mean girl,we already did,

so layan jer la this movie ‘astanovka’ or in english ‘rest stop’. actually its an english movie but the russian translate it to their language.luckly we can pick which one we rather hear which of course,english.

so we watch…ala its sort of this ‘jepper creeper’ ‘the saw’ ‘hills have eyes’ thingy. murder, monster, mutans, psyco, u know those stuff la. i thought, hurmmm just another western movie that try to freak everyone out by some excruciate, yuck, damn, crazy murder stuff. layan……

BUT THAT MOVIE WAS LIKE HELL SCARY!

i dunno why but tengok citer tu jadi gila takot.takot sangat sangat. i have to put my plate away takut nanti pecah lak. the position was, from the left of the laptop was,me,slightly behind me theres nad,and behind nad was wan. from the right of the laptop was fida, slightly back was enal and followed by dayinah.fein was at slightly back of the lappie.x la blakang sgt,more to beside me actually.

it was so scary i dunno why.but damn scary. never in my life i closed my eye most of the time,watching that freaking movie AKA macam x tengok pon m.yer la out of 2.30 hours,i closed my eye for 1.45 hours,so…?suma orang tutup mata,fida look down and closed her ears, enal didnt even look at the laptop,dayinah hide under the selimut, wan im not so sure coz i myself closed my eyes so im not that sure, nad close her eyes, fein covers her head with nads selimut, me,hiding under cap n covered by pashmina (its was cold then so i really need that pashmina). i wonder if suma orang tutup mata saper la yang actually watch that movie.ha ha ha

there’s a scene where that girl try to unlock the door,and then ,that psyco+mutan manage to grab her finger,and he bite it. the moment that psyco+mutan grab her finger we were screaming like hell. serious! it was like .’AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!

hahaha sum text are missing but i really malas to write it back.ciao!