my crap….izzit?

Adoi my kaki is so sakit. Lebam. My oh my my leg dah bengkak giler. Da biru with some pinch of green. Kalau lebam jer tak pe la jugak,nie ditambah lagi ngan rase sakit yang sakit,adoi la….muler nyer tak la lebam sangat, but bila da balik hostel duh, lebam gle.Nie suma ice-skating nyer pasal.! Well my first time ice skating. Im telling you its awesome! Best duh. The first time I step in the ice skating rink I almost fell already. Damn! Licin btol..well what am’I expecting right, bende memang da name ice, mesti lar licin. Silly me. Then ainal and aida teach me how to skate. Duh im telling u,it is not that easy. Its quite tricky. Well I don’t think tricky is the word,but nah I cant think of any correct word now. Compare skateboarding and ice skating, ice skating is much more difficult. At least when you are skateboarding you are skating on a dry place. If you fall pon,you’ll fall on tanah or habis sakit sangat pon,tar jalan je la

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. But ice skating payah, sebab dah la kene imbang kaki, then you are skating on ice yang melting. So when you fall, you fall on ice yang keras gle, and add another one is your cloth, your pants will soaked with ice cold water. Cool eh? Hey but its not all negative kay. Ice skating can be great when you fall and some handsome guy will help you to get up.ahaks! no la. Memain jer. Tapi betul la gak. Kalu naseb baik dapat la. So utuk korang yang becadang nak jatuh kat ice skating rink, make sure korang jatuh dekat org yg ensem and ACT cute. Wahahhahhahhahahhah gle la.

Kalo la korang g ice skating sebab nak carik laki ensem, mesti korang sokmo jatuh nyer coz tuhan x reda.kakkakakakkakaka. pape jer. Anyway back to the story ,my first time ice skating. First first tu memang keje jatuh jer.

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lak kat ainal and aida. Sabar je la diorang ngan aku. Gomenasai yer korang. Tapi pas dah lame aku pon boley la skate sendri. Chip kate ‘weh ko tolak la kaki ko sebelah tu.skate 1 kaki la’ ye la sangat….. Pas dgar chip nyer nasehat lagi banyak aku jatuh. Cis. Sakit gle. Tu yg sampai kaki lebam biru tu! Don worry ye im not blaming anyone. Mmg salah aku pon. Time tu memang da x ley nak control, lost balance then pe lagi, jatuh la. Jatuh melutut lak tu. Tu yang jadi lebam tu. But im saving my lebam for tomorrow, x nak letak ubat lagi coz nak tunjuk kat mama dulu. Hehheeheh. Then raihan sakit. My,sian raihan.. raihan sorry I cant do anything to help you dear.

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lak aku tengok dier. But nah dear, tuhan  x

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duga org tu kalau dier x boleh trima dugaan tu. So raihan be strong ya. And jangan nak degil sgt. Nampak jer cam mak org tapi prangai kalah baby. Aisehhh~~~ . tapi kre ok la coz pas tu rehan da sihat balik. Yeay! So sambung skating. Go go go! Alrite this time I really know how to skate already. Well at least I get the feeling already kay. Ble tengah nak syok skating mesti jatuh. Cis cis cis. Nak ngamuk rase. X nak la jatuh,sakit you know. But then I still skate coz im here to skate right. Ohh penat ber skatin so klua la from katok (ice skating rink in Russian). Kelua ngan kuna/kina/sakinah la.then ader ka sorang uncle nie suruh aku bawak anak dier main. I meant ajar anak dier skating la. I was like, hello hello uncle I’m first timer you know. Kang jatuh budak nie payah lak. Dh la aku skate pon bdo bodo jer nie nak ajar org. ahahhah sian budak tu dapat coach cam aku..so bawak la budak tu skating. Phewww slamat bebudak tu x jatuh time aku bawak, klu x malu siiiiiiiihhhhhh!!!! Abes tu g skating ngan kina lak. Aku jatuh. Kina nyer pasal la. Aiiiiiiii. Pastu kina lak jatuh. Aku nyer pasal la. So adil la

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. Then kina x nak skate ngan aku. Ohhh kina sampai ati kau tinggal

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ku kesoranggan tanpa teman..ahhh..eh jap ,tanpa teman? Oh no no no.ade ade. Pas kina tinggal aku,aku skate sesorang then cam biase jatuh la pe lagi. Kalu dah jatuh mesti kene bangun. Da bangun ade org tolong. Org yg 2 tolong ensem nak mampos. Wahahhahahhahahha rugi la ko kina! ‘boleh bediri ke?’ ‘eh jap jap x stabil lgi nie’ kakkakkakakak lawak btol. X der mase nyer aku nak flirt time jatuh. Kaki sakit nak mampos mane la ingat nak flirt. Oh well, tepelihare iman~~~~~~ ice skating best but sakit. Klu da terre memang la best. Tapi b4 terre kene la jadi x terre dulu. Kalu da x terre mesti sakit nyer. No pain no gain right. But pain is pain la. Sakit ooo. Tapi bebaloi kot. I told my mom ‘ma kaki lebam la,g ice skating’ ‘tu la da x reti pegi skating gak’ aiya mama support la sket. Maner tau

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daughter yg nie bley jadi professional skater ker. Hahhahaha nampak nyer kene g beku

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air bebanyak kat freezer then penuh

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1 living room 2 then pe lgi, home made ice skating rink ar! Yeah baby yeah. Ye la dulu skateboarding kena main kat luar but ice skating bley main kat dalam umah

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ma kan.ahahhahha..menda la aku ngarut ni.k la utuk sesape yg nak g ice skating ajak aku ek. Kalu x der hal aku g. sesame la kite majukan sukan untuk mengelakan dari di serang penyakit diabetis dan sakit jantung kay! C u there. shared/image.html?/photos/uncategorized/dsc00261.JPG" onclick="window.open(this.href, ‘_blank’, ‘width=640,height=480,scrollbars=no,resizable=no,toolbar=no,directories=no,location=no,menubar=no,status=no,left=0,top=0′); return false"><img alt="Dsc00261" title="Dsc00261" src="http://dorayaki272.blogs.friendster.com/my_crapizzit/images/dsc00261.JPG" width="100" height="75" border="0" style="float: left; margin: 0px 5px 5px 0px;" /></a>

What’s the definition of a great day? Well I don’t think there is specific answer for that. Of course what’s great for me is not for you.  Person might say yes and there is always another person who will say no right. Oh well I know that already so I don’t care anymore. Well you know I don’t care anymore when people said no. they always said no anyway. Sometimes I just wonder is there anything in this world that they won’t say no to. ‘They’ refer to the all the time negative side person. When ever problem come out and you gave a solution,they will say no. if you are going out shopping,and ask weather the cloth or whatever is nice or not they will say no. when you suggest that you should eat at this particular place,they said no. when you suggest to go to this place by bus or anything they’ll say, no. no no no. all the answer is always no. and what worst is they don’t gave any better suggestion for the solution. You see, you are not going anywhere with this kind of person. Well find if my suggestion is wrong. It’s normal when human make mistake. But if I’m wrong what’s the right answer? They were against everything that they think its wrong but they themselves don’t know what the right thing is. Instead of saying no to something that you don’t even know the answer, why don’t you give it a try? Stop condemning others suggestion while you are not giving any! Those with ideas are better that you who keep on with the negative opinion. Thou their suggestion is wrong or stupid, well at least they think don’t they.

and so im sitting here on this red sofa alone eating pisang listening to ‘me zhelaem shasti vam’…..

well anis and saadah went silat.cakuna oh well as usual la doma..u see i think well i dont think im thinking right now.oh what a crap. well actually, oh wait im using to much ‘well’ already.i think i had over used the word ‘well’ . maybe after this i should study oxford dict. yeah right…my russian dict pon x abes study.

oh ya now i remember what i wanna write.actually its nothing big nothing much but then i still wanna write.let out what ever stuff that had stuck in my brain for how long tah.how i wish my brain is like computer.you know, once its full then u can change the hard disk for the new one.cool eh~~~~~~~ wow how i wish.

but of course im not a computer. am i glad with that? well yeah. after what had happen for the past 2 or 3 month,i really think about something..’be glad with what you have’ things hasnt been so easy for me as some of you may know why. but the pain of person who are enduring it are much much much more than person who just look at it. its really heart breaking. yeah it really do. sometime i jst keep being positive and optimist but then somehow somewhat of course i will break down. jiwa kacau as the way it should be describe as. of course you may not see it from me. i look very fine eh. like nothing happen. the truth is something had happen. whet worst,i cant turn back the time. i just can do nothing. and thats sucks!

tears?what do u expect…of course.stress?hell yeah…guilty?never been so guilty in my whole life…ahhhh….i already feel all of that. you named it it felt it already. painful?mesti la..but u see whats great about this challenge is i can see the world from different aspect. i feel like im living this life.

so sick of being loser. stop right there!how long am i going to cry right?i got nothing from it anyway. i just wasting my time thinking bout past. oh no. no no not me. so sick of it. its time to live this life. i just live once. ONCE. am i going to sit here and waste it just because some bad things happen?NO WAY! u see,somehow now i think im turning into better one.well not so kiddies kot.dah matang sket kot.yeah.if before this i keep on demand on this and that.what others have, i must have it too. but now…..im happy with i have.you know,take things as it is.i live a better life. life is just too great to let go. in other word ‘SYUKUR!’

When you really lost and dont know where to go.what should you trust,who should you turned to,always remember ALLAH is ALWAYS there.trust me. i feel HIS love and i just cant never get enough with it. ok i know im not that alim. im not a very good servant but you see ALLAH really love us.how bad you are pon,kalau dah mintak insyallah dapat. another thing for me to be syukur with..i was born with ISLAM. x)

i dont want you to pity me.ochin zhal?nyet!i dont think so.i dont need anyones pity instead im thankful for this.He still love me and He dont want me to forget so he test me..thats it.life goes on right. its in your hand how you really want it to be. i stop blaming others. yes i do. blame this person and that,hey at the end of the day what do you get?dosa ada la kan..ahahha

im still hoping for the best.pray for me ya!

PAIN IS INEVITABLE,SUFFERING IS OPTIONAL.

Uh where should I start? Too toooooo many things had happened and I don’t have much time to jot it down. Tah la I just wonder bout the future. I just too complicated. Too complicated. Sometimes I really feel like just want to give up ya know. Maybe I just should go back home get married and have kids and be a dedicated housewife or something. Well that’s what happen when you just get sick with what ever going on..to be continue~~