my crap….izzit?

ouch ouch ouch

mama where are you?i need you.gosh im so mixed up right now..worry actually…damn worried…arghhhhhhhhh….jiwa kacau!!!!!!!great just great this totally ruined my weekend!

its been like what….ermm i think almost 5 weeks i dont have a weekend. always on a go.well this week i decide to chill a bit.take it slow.pick up what i had left.you know..do my assingment, study a bit ,’izuchaiet russki izik’ and basuh baju of sumthing.but nah now i dont think i can rest i peace now..im DAMN worry rite now.I cant tell you what bothers me sorry…but arghhhh oh god help me. you know that waiting is killing rite….

regret from the past…ha ha ha silly me.but nah i do regret.regret a LOT. IF IF IF only i take thing more seriously before…..IF…people said let bygone be bygone..yes i know i had to swallow the fact.but its too bitter too hard too painful.im just a faithless human. it would be so silly if i think i can turn back the time.but sometime i just can help myself…sad..so sad…

all i want is a second chance.this is a letter of begging or what ever you called it. i’ve learned from my mistake. i wont do it again. goin and working for better person. TRUST ME PLEASE. just gimme ONE MORE CHANCE AND I’LL PROVE TO YOU! PLEASE..JUST GIMME THAT DAMN 1 MORE CHANCE!….*praying*

P\S—>dont get me wrong.this post got nothing to do with love kay.

my oh my what a day today.

morning 4 hours straight we learn russian language. kalo muntah pon kluar russian gak.fuhhh….then gegedik g teman maya padruga ke bank.so telepas ler bus INTEC.Cis!x pasal ja kena bayar 70cent naek bus mini balik.

balik bilik lupa bawak kunci.da la tingkat 5!gle la..da la penat balik class,bilik lak tkunci..arghh so tpaksa la g lepak aka merempat kat blik kawan…

this evening hahhaha NETBALL MATCH!!!!! RUSSIAN VS ALM !!! Best gle.penat main.eh…x der la penat sangat pon.but we really enjoy the game.yg best nyer since we all learn russian language and ALM student dont,we cheers and talk in ruski ler.hahaha.even benda yg x der kena mengena ngan game pon kluar gak.all vocab yang kitaorang blaja in class suma klua abes. ’susihsteviltinaeeh= nouns ,fantan=fountain, vada=water n etc.u see all these vocab got nothing to do with the game,but lantak la bukannyer diorang paham pon.i bet all of them cam kagum ngan kitorang but the truth is….hahhahaha =p

at nite got silat class.perghh lamer gle aku skip class.da tamat so malas nak g class but this week pegi gak coz…..he he he ader pemangkin baru!ahaks!tah la cam ner bleh jadi…ok i know u dont understand what i mean by that rite..ignore it k..only fida know..ka ka ka..

n now im here at my apartment.my rummate balik umah.da kul 3 dekat kul 4 dah!aiyak esok got KRUSUS KAHWIN! can u believe it?im goin for krusus kawin.lawak gle.hahaha..kang kat russia or malaysia within 3 years bleh la kawin.ahaks!my mom cakap study dulu.ala study at the same time get married…hurmm what do u think?can a person survive it? izzit a good desicion?

ngantuk…nite people!