my crap….izzit?

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ini rumah baru saya.besar woooooo macam istana. ok girl,stop crapping…

What is going on with me lately?

Lazy
Lazy
Lazy
Lazy
Lazy
lazy
lazy

I know I have lots of thing to do, to do this and that, bla bla bla.

Oh great you know that you have to do it, then why don’t you do it?

Ermm…. I don’t know…I just….don’t feel like doing it…I’ll do it later

‘don’t feel like doing it?!’ and that is the only reason why?!

Oi…azmin wakie wakie!

I know….sigh……

Last nigt I read about this article in saifulislam about new ideology, ‘aku tidak pedulismaa’ ideology siswazah tidur dan jumud. Bila baca,my reaction was,

Ohh too bad for them, hurm mabuk dunia nie….kesian kesian

Kesian? For them? When I think back, I should be more kesian to myself. Being lazy to work, to act, to read, to think, doesn’t that makes me as one of the ‘aku tidak pedulismaa’ victim? This is tough… being alone in the battlefield. At least in moscow I have superb people around me who always there to show me the right path,way,thing,everything.  

At home? Er…….lets do some case study, 

Case  1.
You see, when everyone is walking with their head down, and I walk with my head up, I will felt weird and at least once I will think that ,hurmm maybe walking with head down is the correct way to walk.
 

Case 2
All my life, this is the way I live. This is me. What I think, what I wear, what I like, how I live my life makes me….M.E! and Im not gonna change who I’am just bec ause what you just told me to.

Case 3
I know that im not perfect. But im young,so…. I repent when im older. You know, when Im ready to change. I mean , when I going to decide what I really REALLY really want in my life like getting married, repent, stable job, proper lifestyle, stuff like that…… I will but someday..chill la

And lets do some autopsy
 
Case 1=heads down and up thingy
–>Yes true. Peers pressure? Understand…..
–>Ever wonder why Quran diturunkan and why rasul      diturunkn to us human being?
–>Or wonder why Rasulallah s.a.w  mula-mula cari cream of the cream?

Case  2=  Me myself and I thingy
–>Nobody talking about changing you into me, right?
–>Just because some Russian are living as a communist believer before this, doesn’t means that communist ideology is right eh?
–>Oh, the sahabah Kalid al Walid was a mastermind in war sebelum masuk islam,and he still a mastermind in war after he revert  to islam didn’t he?

Case 3. 007…tomorrow never dies
–>Hey! Did someone come and tell you that tomorrow for sure you will live? Wow, I want to meet that person too!
–>Where do we find prince charming? Oh yeah in fairy tales ONLY.
–>And wh en exactly that ‘time to change’ will come? Oh yeah, in my fantasy ONLY.
–>Habit are hard to curb…..

So lets not be the ‘aku tidak pedulismaa’ victim. Lets think! Lets turn the brain from a reserved yummy bulky protein into a worn out supercomputer!

yummy                                             yuck      
       

Done my anatomy, histology, physiology and biochemistry finals. What does that means? Say astala vista to 2nd year and helloooo summer holiday! Summer holiday, well, simply means going back to Malaysia and be a complete stranger in my own land.

Stranger in my own land?

Yes,. I think I know my country damn well but …wait a second, do I REALLY know this place anymore? The inevitable CHANGES.  Look around and I see changes everywhere, the road ( in penang especially), the shops, the people, the TV programs, the politics, the prices (lontong cost me rm2.50 these days) ,the weather, my home, my siblings, my friends,  everything ermm except for my bloody red painted room (glad!). Heh.

The colour change


Fine my room remain red. Warna duit untuk bayar barang dah ubah. From green (rm5) to red (rm10).The politic flags changed don’t they? From blue to green, or light blue. I leave Malaysia last year on September and I came back on june with,

oh!……
….ah…..
waaa…….
eh?……

Almost half of the states in Malaysia fell to the opposition. The penang MCA dude changed direction to  Keadilan followed by his supporters. The president of party in Sabah announced to the whole country that he doesn’t support Pak Lah. Rumors about possibility of having a vote weather to support Pak Lah or not. Hurmm…..what is next? doesn’t matter.

Im not gonna talk about politics, I really don’t like it thou… my personal thought about politics is, TALK e vsio. That is it. Applies to everyone.

To the politician, they been campaigning about what they wanted to CHANGE, until next general election things remained UNCHANGED. 

How bout the warung kopi lepaking pak ciks, bawah pokok mempela m gossiping mak ciks, and all the politics fans?

Aku nak habaq mai, aku tak setuju suruh cara ………….. Buat kheja. Dia tak pikiaq pakai otak ka,

Gue bingit bangat deh, Kera jaan mau kita pulang, ……….

Even the indons or the banglas or the sri lankans or the thailands  or whatever are TALKING about it.
Everyone seems to have a lot of assessments, best in the world solutions, all level friendly clarifications. Makes me wonder, why does things are hurmm remain dormant?

At least in debate, all we have to do is to debate on a topic and try the very best to convince the adjudicator that our stand is the most relevant. In debate, you are to talk and win. that’s debate. But we are not in debate competition here, this is about existent life, real people, actual situations which demand us to talk and to ACT.

Then who am I? im just azmin. Im an observer. I don’t like modern politics, I don’t believe in campaign, I think its rotten. But im educating myself with issue because being ignorant is not an excuse.

People are surely funny don’t they? Out of all election candidates, how many are there who actually really do it for the people? I mean, it is not an easy job right. Lots of amanah involve. And as imam ghazali said, ’benda yang paling berat ialah amanah’.  all of us read  quran don’t we?

Still remember the ayat about amanah of quran, it is so heavy till the mountain cant bare it, don’t dare to take it, but it’s the human with arrogance said ’Yes, I will take it’. we said yes don’t we? Hurmm… are you blaming the ancestors for accepting it? Thinking that if you are given the choice now, you wont accept it? Hah, no, you still will accept it. it’s the fitrah. Allah know us the best after all.

Kalau tidak, kenapa ramai sangat yang nak jadi wakil rakyat? Ramai yang nak pegang amanah. Sampai lupakan adab islami, sampai boleh belakangkan agama untuk dunia. Hurmm….kalau macam ni, boleh harap ke untuk pegang amanah?

Building a building, when the base itself is undone and berongga macam spongebob’s sponge, do you think the building will stand tall and doesn’t collapse?

I still remember, when abah fetched me at penang airport (flight to Kedah was full,can you believe it?!)
Abah, so Malaysia macam mana sekarang?
Oh macam-macam. Bla bla bla bla (he was talking about politics of course)
Ei….tak paham la abah pasai pa ramai nak jadi wakil rakyat ni. Tak takut nanti kena soal pasal amanah ka?
Hurmm jadi wakil rakyat ni boleh jadi kaya.

In car with mama
Tu banglo tu …………………. punya
Oh ye ke ma,so ………………….dah jadi politician la?

At the end of the day all these thing will lead to the same thing, it is always the money. Now that the scenario will be a little different with more opposition party in pemerintahan, I wonder, will it be for better or worst (but I think its for better ;D woops)

Eh did I just drag my chair and sit behind the opponent side?
My earlier statement was ’  Stranger in my own land due to the inevitable change’
But hurmm nothing seems to change actually…..
Hurmmm

I think its like this,
Tanam pokok balak dekat paya.
Isk kita tanam pokok balak ni tak untung la.

Tebang pokok balak.
Aku rasa tanam padi lagi untung, beras kan tak cukup.
Ok kami setuju tanam padi, jom pakat        ramai-ramai tanam padi ganti balak dekat paya!

Got the message?
You cant fix something if you are fixing just the superficial part of the problem. Fix the profunda!
You cant make more profit just by replacing balak to padi, if the paya remain paya.
You cant change Malaysia into a better place just by replacing the candidate A to B, if money remain as both candidate aspire.

A salute for those politician with truly pure intention.
Let them to their work
the people will never done with talking
And me? Lemme try to change, even a lil bit, by being better person.  Something is better then nothing don’t they?

Nwy

GLAD TO BE HOME
PROUD TO BE MALAYSIAN ;D

its been an extremly saiko week i wud say. its just doesnt make any sense.

the frozen pushkin wifi signal

it is stupid as it sound. past few days been cold i have to admit and kindda cloudy. and ever since, lappie cant even detect the present of that damn golden wifi stuff.

jazlan: eh min ko dapat wifi x?

me: T.A.K

nazrin: ko dapat tak wifi.?

me: T.A.K

pau: wifi still bodo lagi ke?

me: uh huh

wried. i have my own hypotesis bout this phenomena. it is totally absurd thou,but who cares.

‘its cold,so the cloud iz kindda compact with layer of soon-to-fall snow (although it’s autumn heh) so, that extremly weak signal cant pass thru it and therfor cant reach us in this EXPENSIVE ‘5 star’ hostel pushkin!’

thats my hypotesis which of course not gonna help me win noble prize at all. but it seems like pau have better one.

‘aku rase wifi dia beku la.’

woh! maladsi! crazy.

the unpredictable protocol vice dean

physiology coloq. funny, how so many people have to repeat coloq next week due to their protocol. and for the first time in my study history, i met a lecture who,on the girls side! suprise suprise. totally contra with previous olga. heh.

lydia: do you have problem with colour in malaysia this year? last year students book are the optimum usage of colour pencil.

me : like ‘type of muscle contraction under influence of diffrent frecuencq’ ,after achive its optimum state, it will become pessimum. well miss,if last year are optimum, so this year we are the pessimum. thats why. (but i talk to myself je la)

the overcook frisbee..woops pizza

perfect dough. salty sausage. sour tomato puree. bad timing. man…i hate microwave. i want oven! i dont want microwave oven. i want old oven! they are diffrent.

1st pizza. nyam,its good.

2nd pizza, perfecto! .deliver to aida’s room. (thanks for yeast babe!)

3rd pizza, for us. it was so keras, i can even main frisbee with it. or maybe if baling dekat ayam,that ayam surely die.on the spot.  a matter of 10 minutes only. so frustrated!

forever unmoist choc cake

the most moist choc cake i ever tasted in malaysia, became the ‘liat’tes and ‘keras’tes cake i ever tasted in my life. blame the microwave. fail.

go to ur syco class or u’ll be expel

nastia called ainal and told her to told the whole 16 group to go to our syco class. huh? we have class today ke? blur…

nastia: go to your class before 5 pm,your lecture is waiting for you or you’ll be expel

we just got back from physio and already in pushkin and its already 4.15pm and she expect us to be there in 40 minutes time. IS SHE RUSSIAN OR WHAT?! ok fine, if we run and goes bananas maybe we’ll be in fruzenskaya in 30 min time.

but…where is the class eh?

‘ ko cari patung yg duduk n tengah pegang bola’

ha ha ha

‘helps a lot dude’  =/

anyway,we didnt go. ishyyyyyyy

no raya this year,thank you.

so,next week,another busy week.

alexander already give us warning about, histology colloq this time will be more difficult. yeah, as if it ever been easy.

anatoli become suspiciously hardworking and serious this new term. so expect the unexpected.

with these stuff,crawlling like coakcroach,leaving babies in my head, i dont think i can even being bother with hari raya. no card raya this year. not from mom,not from angah, not from luq. nop nothing. ha ha ha .you go girl!

oh i better stop crapping by now. later

Sejuk.

Its early autumn, its September and already cold. The yahoo weather predict that , it will be raining the whole week. I don’t believe in these ramalan cuaca actually. But so far, its been true. I guess ‘yahoo weather’ is an exception then.

So this morning as been describe on the web to be ‘shower rain’ with average temperature 9 degree Celsius, (I was on my way for physiology class) I noticed something interesting. Advantage for being short. I was walking with nad today , although usually I walk fast, but this time I think, I was left behind and have to put extra effort to tail her. Why? Because when your height are below then the standard height of the Russian people who were holding umbrella (most of the umbrella are black, pasal murah ;p) you can just simply selit-selit and tumpang payung orang without being noticed. Macam tikus la.While for those who are to be call as ’the tall’ have to be extra carefull, afraid that you might langgar payung orang and those umbrella usually block your way. Haishh .

Sengkak

Its ramadhan. Yeay!

Its in moscow. Aiya~

With your awesome friend. Wohooooooo!

Buka puasa. Makan. Kenyang. I feel sick. my dad usually call these as ‘sengkak’. I don’t know weather it’s a Malay word or what so ever but that’s the word that we use to describe ‘perut yang kenyang,sampai pening dan nak muntah balik’. today lauk banyak sangat unsur cecair kot. Isk~

Solat

Malas betul nak pergi tarawikh malam ni. Semua sebab sengkak. Aduh. Thinking that it’s ramadhan and this is THE time to do as many ibadat and cleanse my badly contaminated soul, I went. After isyak I don’t feel anything much. But after tarawikh, I have to admitt, I felt damn good and healthy. Blood circulation improve for sure. Wow. Hikmah right? J 

Moree’h. funny. Everyone berebut-rebut nak buat moree’h. last night, 3 bilik buat. Today, our room (nad’s bubur jagung,nyam nyam). Dengar-dengar tomorrow bilik bobo and hadry nak buat. Cant wait!

Its been raining the whole day today. Temperature,well drop drastically suggesting that the winter is approaching. Winter… will be my 2^nd winter here,in moscow. Last 2 years winter (winter 2006) was the 100 year frost they said. It was the coldest winter that only happened once in 100 years. Summer 2007 was the hottest summer in I dunno how many years. And I wonder what this year would be like… but today= cold. But its kinnda nice thou.

Biochemistry. Lost of thing to do and I just open my book, jot down some important thing, and fell asleep. Great…. And this weather makes me feels like its still morning, so no need to rush. Oh man…im screwed. I better adapt to this kind of condition fast or else I’ll be wasting my million dollar time just like that. Haishhh. And knowing that miss Avdeeva as Curella De Vill, NOT GOOD.

Housemates ? 2^nd year surely different with 1^st year. The essentials to study now are, laptops, earphone, blanket or jumpers, and book of course. And when you have 3 people in your room and the next 2 in the room next door (with total 5 person in a house) you will hear 5 different people humming to 5 different song but all are studying. Funny… and me? Im writing this stuff, listening to this indon song that I cant identified whose was it and been cursing since yesterday about Wifi here (my room to be precise).

I better get to work now.

The food are ready! Yeay! J

Oh no,I better eat first.

p/s the day ended with me studying nothing.

Was watching RTM2. A program entitled ‘a day in a life’ . main focus was an orang asli man named Ah Kau. He work as a, well…collecting whatever the jungle offers that can be exchange for money. He didn’t went to school. He found people who talked malay as weird, so he send all of his children/s (I don’t know,how many he have thou) to school. His beloved wife name is ‘lantak’. we were laughing like heck due to her unacceptable name. shame on us I guess. My sis even make a joke about it

‘Lantak kau lah,Ah Kau’

that’s not the point. What im trying to state here is how simple their life are.

Laid back. A humble hut is enough for them. They wear selipar jepun.

Early morning :went to the jungle, built a temporary hut.

Not so early morning: they went deep into the jungle for hunting. If they were lucky they end up with pig or what so ever. If luck are not on their side, they come back empty handed.

Afternoon :lunch. Eating ubi kayu. Bakar dengan kayu api. Tanpa garam,gula,perasa dan pastinya tiada aji-no-moto

Late afternoon :sleep.

Evening :cook. Today they cooked pucuk paku. Mind you its not pucuk paku muda yg biasa kita makan. Ini pucuk paku yang besar macam kipas tu ok. Letak air,letak ’pucuk’ paku, garam lepas itu kacau sampai sebati. It looks like they are playing ’masak- masak’. but they actually eating those, and they are CONTEND AND HAPPY WITH WHAT THEY HAVE. 

Then we tuned in 8tv ‘we’r different’ bet you guys really do. From simple humble life of orang asli name Ah Kau and his wife to ultra rich life of Martha Steward and her apprentices.

It just so different. These people are running here and there, rushing to meet dateline, brainstorming, fighting with each other. They live in sky scrapper . They dine with chef ramsey standard. They wear high heels, leather shiny shoes.

Early morning : take away coffee. Stuck in new York heavy traffic. Running to their work place.

Not so early morning : they have meeting, brainstorming, arguments. Rushing to make an order.

Afternoon : take away lunch. Working. Negotiating with clients. Stabbing each other back. Bloody hell

Late afternoon : came out with conclusion. Stop fighting. Work. Dateline!

Evening : work. The day ended at 12 midnight mind you!

Will they get what they want? Victory? With that hard work. no doubt it theirs.

Do they contented? If they win, yes. At least for this week…

Will it end? N.O

My sis once said ‘my work will never end unless I quit’

Right sis.

And this 2^nd kind is most of us life. Except that im not living ultra rich life like Martha do.

When you get what you what but not what you need

When you are tired and you cant sleep

Stuck in reverse…

Im gona fix you

Coldplay

I guess no matter which life we are leading, kalau hanya untuk mendapatkan keredaan dari-NYA, it doesn’t matter anymore.

Right?

p/s ‘Bagai dua cahaya dari tingkap berlainan tapi dari satu sumber yang SAMA.’

Ala macam dalam utusan terakhir tu.

Im back. kind of odd actually, writing with this new lappie. I just have a beautiful ‘chemistry’ with my slow-virus invaded-old laptop. I love old stuff. Thanks for the memories and being with me when ever I need ya. Old is gold don’t they?

But somehow, we need to move on. Like it or not, 21^st century is all about latest gadgets and technology junkie. I need to replace it. Replacing it doesn’t means I don’t love my old lappie anymore. I just want to let him rest.(his name is bookie by the way) Human would appreciate a spa treatment for relaxing but full system service would be more appropriate for bookie. he he

Now im with ‘her’. my new best friend ‘mig0’. a pink lappie. Enough said. Im a colour freak, black and white and silver? It just not me. I have a great place to live, wonderful people around me and my life is just too colorful. Those colours are mundane, so when there’s pink, I took it!( I want green actually to go with my ipod, oh to0 bad…)

My friend said that it’s a sign that ’you should act like a girl’. ha ha ha. What’s that suppose to mean?

Well Migo, lets do our best~

To infinity and beyond!

saya sangat sedih hari ini.

macam-macam yang saya fikir. saya rasa, masa yang terlalu banyak nie,buat saya fikir benda yang tak penting. tapi nak buat macam mana kan…

and i dont feel very well today. semut ketit kawasan dekat mata saya. jerawat pulak macam cendawan lepas hujan. hidung sudahtersumbat. kepala mula pening.

tidur awal.lepas maghrib,terus tidur.mimpi. you know funny thing about dreams is, everything that bothers you will apperently appear in your dream. i was actually suprise about how accurate it is. semua watak dalam mimpi tu, semua yang keep on bothering me. wow…

‘aku tak tahu apa tindakan yang akan aku ambil’ dialog from hell girl series today.

me too…

So,its 30 july, hari pahlawan in Malaysia. A special day dedicates to celebrate and appreciate the vast contribution of our national heroes and heroines. Wink!J

sekarang kan sudah aman damai,hidup sejahtera, tenang…penting lagi ke hari pahlawan ni?Obviously I haven’t read enough historical material or follow anything that got to do with our Angkatan Tentera Malaysia (oh, im just a good-for-nothing civilian anyway…) to actually feel the spirit like those in militaries, tok penghulus ,perjuang kemerdekaans.

Hey, I do read famous yet controversial book by our former Prime Minister Dr Mahathir ‘the Malay dilemmas’ (still reading) worth reading. Walaupun baru baca beberapa bab,well 5 chapter I think, tapi the thoughts, the politics, the dilemmas and of course the awareness sangat hebat! I mean, untuk orang yang tak baca sangat historical books but able to ‘feel’ the spirit (walaupun tak lah banyak mana,tapi ada la..).

Back to the topic, pahlawan is hero. Izzit? Dalam bahasa Melayu (did you know that before this its bahasa Melayu lepas tu tukar Bahasa Malaysia dan baru-baru nie, tukar balik jadi Bahasa Melayu )perkataan ‘pahlawan’  lebih merujuk kepada orang yang pergi berperang or… I should refer to Kamus dewan edisi ketiga but I can’t find it anywhere, well maybe I’ll ask mama tomorrow. Tapi tu la, for me pahlawan nie macam tu la.

In english, the word ‘hero’ refer to someone who save something big to someone else. Tak la specific kena pergi perang baru boleh gelar hero. It’s like, if someone make me feel good during my ’jiwa kacau’ period, he or she is my hero. Tapi adakah dia boleh digelar pahlawan?

Oh…u’r my hero…

Oh…ko pahlawan ak…(doesn’t sound right eh?)

Masa tengah tulis ni,its almost 2am already, tertengok pulak iklan dekat TV3. A girl who wanted to be part of the army but was then laughed by bunch of boys telling her that a girl should stay and home and cook. Turn out, that girl dah jadi tentera and one of the boys who laugh at her before, jadi tukang sapu. He he he funny.‘semoga ia masih membara’ or something near to that, I got to say, its membara tapi you know, macam bara yang lepas barbeque, dah nak padam…who to blame? The peace? Me?

Tapi bila pikir balik,kenapa la nak jadi negative sangat. Why ’macam bara yang lepas barbeque’? why not ’macam bara masa awal-awal nak barbeque,sejuk lagi, datang masa membara jugak akhirnya,kindda slow but sure’ J

Now,Are we taking a good care of our pahlawan?

Kes helicopter Nuri contohnya, before this dah banyak kes, but no action was taken. Well ok, ajal maut di tangan tuhan, but I just wonder, once this case jadi, what did they do to prevent it?

Remember the case yang driver lori I think, tengah minum kopi elok-elok, tiba-tiba serpihan bom from nearby practice kena,causing him forever lost of his hand!

And today, about pemotong rumput yang tengah well,of course potong rumput dekat padang tempur tentera darat terkena serpihan bom from the practice,and died.

Before practice don’t they have any radar or infra red or what so ever gadget to detect if there any creature call homosapien,so that they can warn them to clear out the place. Did they do proper calculation about the possible effect from their boms?

My oh my I hope I wont be arrested after this like other bloggers.

Whatever it is, takziah and salute for these people for their contribution.lagi baik macam nie dari pergi edar dadah,mencuri. Tabik!

Harap-harap lepas nie diorang tingkatkan tahap keselamatan,not only to their beloved officer but also to this orang-orang biasa. They have mouth to feed too don’t they?

Selamat hari pahlawan. Dedicated to all heroes out there and especially for those working in ATM,Police,Bomba,JPA3 or will be working or wish to work with them. Thank you for protecting me, my family, peoples I love, everyone. Spasiba vham!